May 27, 2011: It's Britney, B*tch

I'm back!

I've been home for about two weeks and while I'd like to think that I'm fully adjusted, my doctor and insomnia say otherwise... But I'm beginning this summer off with a very coy and cautious foot-dip into the waters; just to check the temperature. If I were to plunge in without rational thought I might be swept up in the busy current of my internship in Boston where a friend and I are responsible for the success of this menswear collection; I could get pulled out to sea by my constant conversations with an ex-lover whom I'm not sure what he wants from me. And I can't think about that pesky off-shore current that tries to secretly slip me away from the shore, another boy from my past that hasn't gotten his sh*t together, but might want me? But I want him... I'm not sure he wants me...

Ball and Buck is the name of the company I'm interning with and this weekend all the interns (7 of us) are heading up to Maine with the two founders a bonding weekend.



  1. Hi Peter,

    I'm glad to discover you here. You seemed so sad and troubled in your sign-off last year sometime on your You Tube channel. You strike me as such a sweet, gentle, sensitive young man; you need and deserve encouragement, acceptance, support and lots of love.

    I wish you much success in your internship and your future career. And I hope you find someone who will love and appreciate you, as I have. We've been together 15 years now and I'm more in love than ever!

    Take care my friend,


  2. Hi Peter--I'm so glad to find you here. I've missed you on You Tube, especially since that sign off post in which you told your followers goodbye.

    Your semester in Italy must have been wonderful. I haven't sampled that blog yet, but I will.

    I hope your internship with Ball and Buck goes well as a learning experience with you and proves of benefit to them,

    A word or two of advice: don't let any of the currents pull you away from the solid ground of your own identity. I know that you are not only a sweet, sensitive and caring young man, you are also a most fortunate person who was adopted by a loving family not as an accident nor in a moment of whimsy, but because they really wanted you. I also know you are intelligent and perceptive (2 related but distinct characteristics), qualities that will serve you well in the future.
    As various phases of your life unfold, you will develop the confidence and wisdom to deal with each.

    You're also really cute, but that's another subject altogether.

    I've found as my life evolves that each phase has its sorrows and triumphs; fortunately, the latter seem to exceed the former. My partner and I have been together for 15 years now and we're more in love than ever. And the thing that binds us most closely together is the medical mission project we have undertaken in The Philippines, where the need is so great. We are both physicians who have had satisfying and successful practices, but the joy in what we're doing now eclipses everything in the past.

    All the best to you Peter--I know you have a bright future. Have faith in yourself!